Things I'm thinking about right now

I'm sitting at my desk counting down the minutes until I can get out of here. That makes me think: how much of my adult life am I going to be sitting behind a desk counting down time? Which makes me feel sad, which makes me think about getting up from my desk and running away somewhere. But then I remember that I hate running. I really do. But if I were to run away from here, where would I go? It's important to have a destination. And if I were to run somewhere I'd probably want to change shoes first because these gelly shoes are semi uncomfortable/holey/sweaty. Why do feet sweat? Can't they stop doing that? It's inconvenient!

As you can see, I'm thinking a lot of things. Don't let my vacant expression and silence fool you. Many-a-thought are running through my head.

So that's why, in lieu of any better ideas, I'm going to make a little list of things that I've thought about today.

1) The Mormon Temple in Washington, DC. Well, it's not really in DC. It's right outside DC on the beltway. I-495. I used to drive right by it on my way to college. It's a really creepy and pointy. Why does it need to be so pointy? To spear birds for dinner? To kill skydivers? Is it offensive that I'm assuming Mormons want to spear birds for dinner on their religious buildings? Or that I think Mormons get joy out of killing leisurely sky divers? Would I be offended if someone said that about a Jewish synagogue? Probably not. I'd think it was stupid and then I'd feel bad for the person who thought that. Anyway, I took a picture of it with my camera phone once. I wonder if it's still on my phone, or if that was my phone vibrating earlier.

Here's a picture:(EWWW)

2) I wonder if I should volunteer this week? Or next week? I'm going out for drinks tonight after work and then doing trivia tomorrow night. Will Kia reply to my e-mail and will we go out Thursday night? Or would it be better to stay home and relax Thursday night? Why am I so into relaxing? Why am I storing up all my energy and making sure that I'm well rested all the time? Do I need to be well rested? What does it feel like to be tired? How would I describe that to someone? 'It feels like someone pushing down on your eyelids so you have to strain to keep your eyes open...and you feel heavy...and you feel mad because you don't want to be awake but you are anyway so you want to take it out on who you're talking to...except it's not their fault that you're awake and didn't get enough sleep'. Anyway, if I don't do anything Thursday night I could volunteer then but I probably should have signed up already.

3) I wonder if the phone will ring now. Now? I wonder if it'll ring at all for the next hour?

4) I wonder what kind of drink(s) I should get tonight. I like gin and tonics and mai thais...MY thais? Mai Tys? But, shouldn't I try something new? Or maybe I shouldn't try anything new and I should get what I like. But couldn't I like something else and not know it because I haven't tried it yet? Does it matter?

5) Where will I be in a year? Will be I applying to grad school? Or have already applied? If I do apply, am I going to have to write one of those stupid personal statements? Is my laziness regarding writing a personal statement a good enough reason to NOT apply to grad school? How would I even pay for more school? Why was my student loan payment $100 less this month than last month? I mean it's kind of nice right now, but did I switch to the 20 year plan instead of the 15 year plan and not know it? Or maybe I'm just really lucky?

6) What should I wear tomorrow? Will it be warm out? Or is it going to snow? I need to get new boots. My FUGGS are too hot. My little rain boots aren't actually rain boots and when I step in puddles my feet get wet.

7) I hate the feeling of having wet feet. Seriously, so gross.

8) Did I eat too much today? I ate a lot of cookies...but I didn't really eat them all. I only hate half of each cookie. That still adds up though. Maybe I should keep one of those food calorie counter notebooks...but that would probably just be depressing. But maybe it would actually help me to eat less...

9) My teeth kind of hurt. I should probably go see a dentist.

10) I wonder if I'll ever go to North Korea like the NY Philharmonic Orchestra. Eh. I don't think I really want to.

11) It'll be nice to go home this weekend. I can see the cats! And relax...Here I go again about relaxing. Did mom ever finish watching 'My So Called Life'?

12) What should my 'quote of the day' be? I really like so many quotations...why am I having such a hard time thinking of one for this blog?